One thing I will definitely miss when I get back to America and have to fend for myself is having three beautifully prepared meals. Every day breakfast (brekkie) lunch and dinner (din din) three or more courses each. Master chef Pat, bless his heart, must be up at the crack of dawn frying up eggs. Then up till bedtime cleaning up, after the last eater slowly makes it's way out of the kitchen, stomach distended and already dreaming of the next delicious meal.
I feel like a true glutton when I can't help but go back for a second of third helping. I always think of my family at dinner time: Oh Kevan would die for this chocolate cake...Good thing Bug isn't here, there are onions in everything... I started thinking about my gluttony first to decide if it was rude to eat so much. Then I thought it must be more rude to leave anything to waste. I came to the conclusion that it was alright to have a third helping only if it looked like everyone else had helped themselves to seconds. This seems justified.
I have an annoying habit of applying unrelated, and often ridiculous daily "struggles" to life lessons. This particular inner turmoil over my eating habits is just a way for me to demonstrate to friends and family how I feel about my time on Heron Island.
Similarly to mealtime, being here without some of these people that I care about most, I sometimes feel like a glutton. It would make me feel much better to share these experiences with them. And not just in storytelling. I can go home and tell them about how delicious the curry was, but they will not really taste it for themselves. I can go home and tell them about the feeling of seeing their first 'proper' shark swimming beneath them, but it won't feel the same. Even pictures of the sunset won't have the same fire.
I know that this is the reason that I want to work in conservation. There are so many things in this world that I still hope to see and that I want my brothers and sisters to be able to see for themselves. This line is for all my nerds out there : "There's some good in this world..and it's worth fighting for."